Lately, as I have read a couple of my favorite blogs: The Paint Factory, A Well Styled Life, it seems we all are having a common theme. Who am I? Or What will I be when I grow up? Even though I can say that I am well past the stage of adolescence! In fact, I am a grandmother – twice!! But when I reflect back on my life, as I approach another birthday, I am wondering if I have accomplished all I set out to do? As a child growing up in Iowa, I can remember thinking I will probably get married and be a teacher. Nothing earth shattering, in fact, pretty boring. I didn’t set out to think I was going to set the world on fire. We were just a small town family in a small town in Iowa. I do remember though of having thoughts as to “why am I me?” I still remember where I was when that thought popped into my brain! I was 5 years old and looking up at our old cherry tree , in the house where I was born, in Des Moines, Iowa. What happened in the next few years, when I was about 6 years old until the time I was 18 years old has changed and shaped my life dramatically. My parents had a “life plan” of their own, which really didn’t include my feedback. I went to 7 different schools from the time I was in 3rd grade, until the time I graduated from high school in 1975! I was a very shy little girl, who was extremely tall for her age, and to top it all off – I had a very unusual name: MILEAH. No one could pronounce it. Now it’s not so uncommon – there is even one in the White House! It was very painful for me to make new friends and experience new social situations – something I am a lot better at today. I vowed in those difficult years, that I would NEVER make my children move or change schools – and they never did.
Now, my children are grown adults, and have both moved away. I, myself, don’t live in the small town where I raised my children. My husband and I have moved closer to our grandchildren. Although this move has NOT been easy – it has given me insight as to what I want to be when I grow up! A forced retirement, and lots of health issues has thrown quite a few curves into the path I thought I was on. I can easily be thankful for small blessings now as well as the big stuff! My whole life I worked so hard to put my children’s needs before my own, and I think it paid off!! They are successful children, living wonderfully successful lives with their loved ones! I couldn’t be happier for them.
Now it’s time to contemplate what is best for me! What a concept – when I’m going to be 58 years young in just a few weeks! Although I live on a very tight budget, the freedom to choose what’s next is awesome! It’s almost – not quite – like being a kid again! What used to make me tick, is now what I look forward to again – fashion ( now it’s for over fifty), DIY, and decorating – has given me a new outlook on what I can do with my 2nd Act!