When my son and his girlfriend gave me this web-site for my birthday I was beyond excited!! I thought it would be used to further my furniture business. Now, after several months of using it strictly for re-making of furniture, I’ve come to the conclusion that I need to expand the use of this web-site into the re-making of the 2nd part of my life. I have had so many twists and turns in this past year that I have lost count as to how many road blocks I have hit at full speed! From being laid off (after 25+ years), moving from Arizona to Texas – and don’t get me started on the move! It was a fiasco from day one! Moving into a house that I hate! In a location that is NOT where I want to be! Breaking my ankle right in the midst of the move-in. Husband who has open-heart surgery, and needs help with recovery . Even though it sounds as if disaster has struck, I have experienced some true blessings! One being – the birth of my second grand-child! A precious little girl – Zia Capri! Another plus – her big brother – my 1st grandchild – Zander! Who is the apple of my eye! I am so lucky that I can see him everyday if I want to! So, in between these huge life moments, I am applying for jobs for the first time in 25 years! Believe me – this is a humbling experience! For the first time in my life I feel old. I never really knew that at 57 years old – you are really considered OLD! People who do the hiring want the young, hip, “cool kids”, NOT the mature AARP people!! Rejection is now a daily occurrence! In my mind I am still young – maybe in my 30’s or 40’s – certainly NOT on the down side of 50’s! I am a little surprised when I see my reflection – that I do appear older than I feel! My inner spirit does not come across through the web when I apply for job after job with no feedback. It can be very disconcerting! I am learning that this world doesn’t look kindly on years of work and on-the-job-experience. Nor does the world care if you have been a loyal and hard-working employee.
So after 6 months of trying to re-live my life in Arizona here in Texas, I have realized after some life changing moments, it is now time to do some major life changes. Never again will I live in a large house. Time to down-size. Get rid of non-essentials. Just live within your means – and believe you me after having been unemployed for several months you really do learn to live within your means! Smaller is better.
Even though I am still looking for work, I have to believe that SOON, something will come my way. I am FINALLY letting go of what USED TO BE, and believing that moving forward into a WHOLE new life I will find new doors and windows opening up!